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      The banging grew louder, coinciding with the painful pulsing in my head, 
        as I slowly became conscious. Groggily I got up from the sofa, limped 
        over to the door, and opened it. 
        “Holy hell, what happened to you?” a shocked voice asked. 
        I squinted harder, realizing the voice belonged to my old college roommate, 
        Zandra. A vague recollection of having something planned with her entered 
        my mind, but the pain in my head prevented me from thinking much further. 
        I turned and made my way unsteadily back to the sofa. 
        “Vanessa?” her voice was now concerned. “Vanessa- what 
        happened to you?” 
        “Everything.” I sat down heavily, and put my sore ankle up 
        on the table. I pulled my robe together as best I could, as I could feel 
        her staring at me. She stood in front of me, hands on her hips. The smell 
        of her perfume made me sick in my stomach, and I swallowed hard. 
        “You look like shit. Where’s the tie for your robe? Did you 
        drop it?” she looked down around her on the floor. 
        “She took it.” I said quietly, still trying to believe it 
        myself. I had let her take the sash. I had let her…take everything. 
        There was no going back, now. 
        “She?”  
        “Madlax. The girl…the girl I had sex with last night.” 
        “What…what…” Zandra backed up, reached for the 
        chair behind her, and sat down with a thud. “What did you just say?” 
        “Against that wall.” I nodded my head slightly, as it hurt 
        to turn it. I watched as her mouth dropped open. It was hard to tell which 
        was bigger, her eyes or her mouth. 
        “You- you’re not lying, are you? Oh shit, Vanessa! How could 
        you?” 
        “It just happened.” I put a hand over my eyes, trying to squeeze 
        the pain from my head. 
        “What do you mean it just happened? Where did you meet 
        this girl?” 
        That was easy to answer, but so ludicrous that I couldn’t help but 
        start to laugh quietly, still holding my head. 
        “On the street.” I didn’t have to look, her gasp told 
        me everything. She jumped up out of the chair. 
        “You had sex with some girl you met on the street and you think 
        it’s funny? Vanessa Anne Renee, what has come over you? Have you 
        any idea what this sounds like?” she was pacing now, and suddenly 
        leaned over the coffee table, grabbing the empty wine bottle. “You 
        were drunk weren’t you? I mean, you’re hungover now- you were 
        drunk, weren’t you?” she waved the bottle at me. 
        “Pretty drunk. I drank that whole bottle.” I admitted with 
        a groan, wishing my head could fall off. 
        “That’s it then. You were drunk, and she took advantage of 
        you being such a nice person. There. It won’t happen again.” 
        she slammed the bottle down with authority. 
        “I feel awful.” I really did, my head was one pulsing point 
        of pain. 
        “Well you should- really now, I’ve known you for six years 
        and you’ve never done anything so crazy! Now go get in the shower 
        and I’ll make you something for that hangover. God, I hope she didn’t 
        have some sort of horrible disease!” she called out, making her 
        way toward the kitchen. With a huge groan, I got up and made my way to 
        the bathroom. 
      “Slut puppy.” Zandra sat on the edge of the bed, watching 
        me grimace as I dressed. 
        “Zandra- it’s not like that.” 
        “You’re right. It’s lesbian slut puppy.” 
        “Zandra!” 
        “But you did, didn’t you? Have a one-night stand with some 
        street person?” 
        “She’s not some street person. She’s living here with 
        me.” I pulled my pants over my air cast with a final tug. 
        “Oh my god.” Zandra whispered at this revelation. Then her 
        eyes widened as she looked down at the bed. “Oh my God!” 
        she cried out, jumping up and frantically brushing herself off. 
        “Zandra- I- we-” I didn’t know how to explain anything. 
        I watched her put her hands over her ears and violently shake her head. 
        “No! I don’t want to hear any more. Last weekend you were 
        a normal person and this weekend I don’t know who you are!” 
        “Neither do I, really.” I muttered, putting on my shoes. She 
        dropped her hands and looked at me with pleading eyes. 
        “Please Vanessa, I can’t hear any more of this- let’s 
        just go shopping like we’re supposed to do, okay?” 
        I smiled and nodded, but her smile back was strained. I sighed. What the 
        hell was I doing? She was right- a week ago, I was normal. And now…. 
        “Madlax.” I whispered as I went to get my purse. “What 
        have you done to my life?” 
        
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